sharks

Getting the courage to "open the wound" and then getting deserted. Though it was not the fault of the deserter, family emergencies happen. It will add time to the recovery process; because the trust that was initially there has now been tampered with. Bringing all the raw emotions, that have been placed in a deep dark hiding spot, back to the very front of the mind. Just to disappear and not help through or give things to consider when thinking about them. Like leaving someone in the middle of a pool of sharks and then throwing in the bloody fish. How is one expected to come through without some help? The emotions were put away in a dark far away place because they are too hard to face, too much to handle. The books that were supposed to help have been read and they just add more sharks to the pool. They helped realizations come forth but knowing the problems just adds more hurt, how do I get to the side safely and pull myself out?