surrender

some give generously this gift that I hold back. they can give themselves so completely to other people; let them into every aspect of their lives. they can share their dreams, their desires, their fears, and mistakes. holding back has been my shield, it's kept me safe from judgement, hurt, and anxiety. the walls I've built are so tall I fear they may never come completely down. it would be amazing to completely give myself to someone else, to trust them so entirely that I could relax every muscle, every fear, and quiet every reservation. words could flow freely without fear of offense, passions could be shared without fear of judgement, experiences could be had that could morph reality just by simply surrendering.